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So it’s already 1.48am now and I’m in Taipei, fcuking tired after running around + eating the whole day but I still insist on churning out this entry ‘cos I dowanna lose this feeling.
30th May marks another milestone in my life. As many of my friends already know, Loti proposed. O M F G W T F I K R !
I swear it was at one of the most unromantic places ever – Changi Airport’s Osim foot massage chairs. We were resting before our flight (the machines weren’t even working), then Loti suddenly showed me some videos. They were snippets of him talking, then suddenly at the last video, he took out a ring! Then he flashed a card and said, “Will you marry me?” I was taken aback. It was so abrupt I didn’t even know if it was really happening. I told him, “I want to hear the real one.” “Of course,” he replied. He came over and knelt in front of me with the ring and repeated the four magical words. I was already crying and choked, “YES.” THEN HE PUT THE RING ON THE WRONG FINGER. Major diao -.- HAHAHAHAHAH. He said he was kanjiong (so cute). But when we figured out which was the right hand and finger, it was a perfect fit. I hugged him and continued crying.
However, the most stunning thing was that Loti had already bought this ring half a year ago, and he actually closed down one of his bank accounts to do that. Silly boy. Also apparently, all my close friends and his family and friends knew about the existence of this ring, but everyone played dumb for six months. IMPOSSIBRU! After that, Loti started telling me facts about the diamond (dunno what cut clarity value etc) but to me, they weren’t important at all. I only know that this man showed hand to ask for my hand in marriage. He could have waited till he gets a stable job and enough money to do so, but he chose to gamble away almost all his student savings now. I’m.. truly… touched.
Still, why at Osim foot massage chairs? ‘Cos it was discreet enough according to him, and we are simple people like that. No fanciful flowers, no unwanted attention from strangers, no applause – just us and true feelings :’)
Thanks for all the blessings from everyone! People happy for me I see liao also very happy lei :D
I’ll try to update my trip along the way if I can. 2.28am now. Bye! Updated!
A while ago when everyone was playing with the imadeface iPhone app, I made Loti made my face (and his). I already did a version of us beforehand but didn’t showed it to him ‘cos I wanted to see how I looked like in his eyes. (Maybe I look va va voom to him.)
IT WAS VA VA VOOM INDEED! Hahahahah it’s either he sees me as a goddess, or had a really hard time matching facial features. I believe it’s more of the latter.
Then when I showed him my version we started LOL-ing.
Here’s to everyone who keep saying we look alike! :O
This is gonna be a post that I’ll just type whatever that comes onto my mind and I won’t read through again so there will be grammar mistakes or whatever shit but IDC. I’m so busy that I keep forgetting what I want to blog about. Busy with work and relationships – family, bf, friends. It’s hard trying to strike a balance with everything. Got a XBOX Kinect recently and am glad that family are having fun with it. Got a GoPro Hero 3 also but it’s rotting on my shelf now. No time to play with it. Anyway, didn’t know that if your overseas orders exceed $400, you’d be taxed. KNN. I’m actually running a flu now and I want to go home and rest but I dowan to miss the good lunch that my team planned to go. What a loser to food. Last Saturday was siao. Woke up at 5am to do work, then go back office to work on pitch till 11pm, then head to Zouk and played till 4am. It’s been a super long time since I did that and conclusion is that clubbing will only be fun if it’s once in a while thing with the right company. Dragged myself up for brunch the next morning and I’m still the kind who likes chilling over a cuppa coffee. Then I went back to sleep my whole Sunday away. Oh I dyed my hair ash brown, kinda. It looks different under different lightings. Taiwan trip is coming up and I can’t wait but so many things need to be done before I go off. One big thing is assigning Loti’s mum to help us choose our unit while we are away ‘cos we’ve gotten a queue number for a BTO that we randomly tried our luck with. OMG. So adult. Can’t believe that I’ll be getting a house with Loti. Thinking about it, I’m placing a bet on someone whom I’ve only known for 1.5 years and hasn’t even graduated. But I choose to believe that our goals in life are the same. We wanna explore the world and dowan kids. (The kids issue I can write a full post on it). We’re starting our journey with Taiwan. I feel happy around Loti and we do the stupidest things together. He’s a friend and a partner. My ex can only be a partner but not a friend. Bringing my ex abruptly into the picture is uncool, but that doesn’t mean I haven’t gotten over him or he’s still somewhere in my mind. Looking back, I wasn’t even completely myself when I was with him. Cannot blame also la, I was only 17 when I dated him. BUT BUT, there isn’t one day that I can’t thank enough that he cheated on me. Thanks for cheating on me and creating a valid reason for a breakup else I wouldn’t be what I am today. I used to want to get married by 24 and have my first kid at 25 (WTF) but the breakup made me view life completely different. I think we all grow up to realise that life really isn’t a bed of roses. Life is so short and unpredictable. You’ll fail, get hurt, make wrong choices but such is life. Whether you give up or become stronger really depends on individuals. I’ve spoken about these kind of things so many times but I really believe in taking chances and doing things that you enjoy. There are no regrets, only lessons learnt. There’s also no such thing as you NEED someone else to make you happy. How can you depend on another person for your own happiness I don’t geddit. I can also go on about this kind of person or people I can’t stand in another post. Hahaha I dunno what else to say la. KTHXBYE!
From 20 Apr – 28 Jul 2013.
Some time last year, Loti and I decided to go on a one-month trip. When air tickets went on sale, we instantly hit on the book button, and there we were – Taiwan in 35 days. At that point in time, I had no thoughts on consequences despite having just converted to full-time. I overheard and assumed that there was something called an “unpaid leave,” and even if there isn’t, the most I quit my job lor. I was quite an unhappy lone ranger in my company anyways.
Moving forward to the beginning of 2013, after being inspired by my superior, I set my heart to change for the better. With a new attitude, I was given a month’s time to prove myself. I started opening up to people around me and soon, colleagues turned into friends (at least for me). These people suddenly became my motivation to go work everyday. A happier soul also translates into greater productivity, and I didn’t mind giving more or doing extra stuffs. So, one month later, I got confirmed. YAY!
Just when all is good and well, my worst nightmare came true. “Unpaid leave” does not exist, unless it was communicated way beforehand and should be for a super extremely very good reason. Dang! How liddat. I’ve already came out with a perfect plan for the whole trip and made deposits for most of the accommodations.
Much as I want the best of both worlds, reality only left me with two choices:
If you see the second option and go like, “HUHHHH! SIAO AHHH!” Then, ya, I think I siao liao. ‘Cos I chose 2, with my heart (and not my brain).
I know it sounds foolish, to sacrifice my career just for a vacation. “Go two weeks not enough meh?” Enough is enough, but that defeats the entire purpose of the one-month idea. These 35 days mean more than a mere vacation to me. It’s about living independently outside my comfort zone with a possible life partner; it’s about experiencing a different kind of traveling pace; it’s maybe even about migration in the future. Also, if we don’t do it now, once Loti starts working, we’d probably never get a chance to travel for 35 days straight, at least not in the next five years. And it’ll get even harder when you grow older (more responsibilities, more loans, less guts, less energy, etc).
Today, 8 March 2013, the go-getter in me went against all advises to give up my job over a 35-day Taiwan trip. Ten years down the road, I don’t know if I’d look back with regret or rejoice. But whatever it is, the trip (this coming June) better be DAMN AWESOME! Meanwhile, my promise to myself is that I will not give anything lesser at work just because my intents of quitting are made.
After leaving Singapore for a month, I’ve made a comeback and am now back to working. It wasn’t easy trying to re-enter the same office doors, but I am definitely thankful.
Fuck knights in shining armours, prince charmings or whatsoever heroes because I am Kaiyi AND I AM MY OWN SUPERWOMAN muahahah! Except that I can't fly, and er, I don't wear my undies on the outside.